Today I feel a heavy burden of guilt. As a family, Halloween is our favorite time of year. And I can't really participate in it. No costume for me this year, no haunted houses, no ghoulish treats to make, no tricks to be had.
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| Silver Era Tarot- Ten of Wands, The Hierophant, The Lovers |
I always want to give my kids everything, every experience, every tradition, because we didn't have those when I was a kid. Nothing was the same even from day to day, let alone year to year. I like my kids to experience traditions both big and small, holiday grandiosity and every day comforts. I know they do not matter to them all that much now, but I know they will. One day. The Ten of Wands shows my heavy burden, and my back pain, quite literally. The Hierophant is the card of tradition and ritual, things doe the same over and over. The Lovers is not just romantic love, though my sweet, handsome man is picking up the slack as best he can, but it shows the love I have for this family, and the choice I have to make today, between pushing myself beyond what I am capable of and trying to provide what I think they want and need.
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| Silver Era Tarot- Page of Cups |
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| Inspirations for Survivors |
The shadow card is the Page of Cups, a sweet soul who tells me the kids understand, and I would ask for forgiveness but they don't even expect it. This is most often my NicNoodle in my readings, and she has already made plans to be with friends tonight. I am glad she will be busy and happy, but I am sad I am not so missed.
I also drew a card from
Inspirations for Survivors, also by Aunia Kahn and Russell J. Moon, and it seems that I may be making more of this than needs to be made, because its' message is overwhelmingly positive, The song bird in your soul is ready to sing. So, while my finally tricks and treats, and I rest in bed, and they wear costumes and scare each other and get scared, I'll be doing what I am supposed to be doing, too.
These cards are from Silver Era Tarot and Inspirations for Survivors Cards, both by Aunia Kahn and Russell J. Moon, published by Schiffer Books.
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ReplyDeleteNo, I am a tarot reader and teacher, but I have not created any cards. The artists are Aunia Kahn and Russell J. Moon. Thanks for stopping by! I'll be using these cards all week.
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Aw, your kids do understand. I took my youngest out trick or treating in a costume I threw together at the last minute because I've just been tired and blah lately, and my 18 year old walked with me. As I looked at the other houses with their festive decorations (Ours had none.) I told my 18 year old I felt like a dud because I didn't make a big deal out of the holiday. She told me I wasn't a dud, that I was doing what I could and our little one was having fun, and that's all that matters for a holiday like Halloween. Your love is what they remember, not whether or not one year is as big a party as the last.
ReplyDeleteAww, thank you for your kind words. I really felt better for your reminder of what is really important! I hope you are feeling better yourself, soon.
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