|Deirdre of the Sorrows Tarot- Judgement, Five of Swords, The Empress|
Today I am using a spread I have often used called Thorhammer's Daily Spread, which was crafted by someone I knew on a forum, a lovely Australian lady named Kat. The positions are "What I Did Well Today", "What to Leave Behind From Today" and "What to Carry Forward From Today".
What I did well today- Judgment: Generally speaking, Judgment is a card that urges me to spiritual self care, to listening to the call I am hearing, so that I am not left behind as others move forward. That is a kind of generic meaning for that card, for me. This one features a lightning bolt bearing god and a more distant angel, supplicants offering what they may have, and one soul turning away, choosing to remain a dessicated corpse. It's a heavy card, deep with meaning. Today, I made a vat of chili, wrote a little, and laid about, resting up from some sleepless nights and the rock concert last night. In that way, I cared for myself, gave myself a respite I really needed, so I followed the meaning of the card I have, but the imagery of this card is not necessarily restful or of a calling nature. I did not have any great epiphanies, except to not rub one's eyes immediately after dicing jalapenos, so I struggled a bit for the meaning of this card for me today.
I think today, this card is more about forgiveness, and the proper dispensing of Judgment. And the person I forgave was me. Usually I am very hard on myself, and while I work at home, discipline is a part of getting that work done. In most circumstances, had I essentially taken the day off work, I would have beaten myself up terribly for that, but today I just went with it. The little nap and the mindless tv watching has left me refreshed.
What I need to leave behind from today- Five of Swords: I don't need to fight, and I don't need to "win". I experienced a bit of a bump in the road of a longtime friendship today, and this particular person and I are notorious for bumping heads, and hard. I could very clearly see where I thought he was in the wrong today in our conversation, but I decided to just let it go, because it's his life to lead, not mine, and his lesson to learn, if it is his time, and even assuming that I am right where I think I am. I don't need to win at any cost, and people's feelings matter more to me than being right. At least that is what I am working on.
What to carry forward from today- Empress: More cooking tomorrow, more cleaning and laundry, because when you have five kids that never ends. I take extreme delight in the small pleasures of home and hearth, and I enjoy making my home pleasant, so this card is not a surprise. After finishing NaNoWriMo about a week ago, I have found the habit of writing at l east 1,667 words is sticking, so that creativity, at a good clip even, continues to flow, and the Empress is all about nurturing the creative aspect of ourselves, as well as others. And incidentally, I find it far easier to write with a full and warm belly at a clean desk without chores weighing on my mind, so by taking care of those things I am freeing myself for other work I like more.
|Deirdre of the Sorrows Tarot- Knight of Coins|
These cards are from The Deirdre of the Sorrows Tarot Deck by Deirdre O'Donaghue and Wayne McGuire, available from her website, Tarot Unlocked.