Thursday, October 25, 2012

Alive and Kicking!

Dark Carnival Tarot- Ten of Axes (Swords)
I'm home, my back is on fire, but I am home.  This card represents the Lotus Cross, heavy in the artists' symbolic dictionary, and was drawn on good Friday.  She says that while the card usually depicts someone being slaughtered mercilessly by Swords, it can also be the ultimate sacrifice, dirty pain that feels awful in the moment but leads to a much better place.

That is me today.  I hurt like a mutha, but I hurt constantly anyway.  The hope is this last burst of pain will take away the daily pain of living with a herniated disk,which is at times tolerable and at times excruciating.

Thanks for hanging in there with me!

This card, which is the Ace of Axes, relating to Swords, is from  Dark Carnival Tarot is self published by Rachel Paul and sold on etsy.


  1. Glad to read that you are back ok. Found today's reading with the DM really interesting. Thanks for sharing. I hope that you are being lead to a better place Mandy Sue!

    1. Thank you so much! I am ready to be done with back issues. Once this is resolved, I promise to do my gentle yoga every day, lift from my knees, buy a great mattress, and see my chiropractor once a month but I ever want to experience this again. I appreciate the loving support!