Daily Draw- Ten of Cup, Knight of Wands, The Emperor

Happy families don't just happen.  You have to be focused with hot intensity on making it so, and put up protective boundaries around your loved ones.

Deviant Moon Tarot- Ten of Cups, Knight of Wands, The Emperor

Mark and I got our happy ending, you can see that in the Ten of Cups.  The problem, and blessing, with happy endings is that they are not the end at all.  You live your happy ending, day by day, and some of them are better than others.  We have four teenage boys and one 10 year old girl, going on 15, at least.  Teenagers can be so much like the Knight of Wands, all Fire and with plenty of Air to fuel it.  Teenage years are so strange.  You can't wait to get away from your family, their stupid rules, the way you feel like they restrict you, yet you never want to leave the comfort of home, where your mama doe your laundry and has dinner on the table.

Enter The Emperor, a symbol of the loving boundaries we have to put in place, so the kids have room to make mistakes and grow, with the safety net of home to cover that.  They do not always see our rules as protective, but mostly restrictive.  They wouldn't be normal teenagers if they didn't feel that way.

Deviant Moon Tarot- Nine of Wands

The Shadow Card makes me think of how down I can get when dealing with the exes, particularly the sheer meanness and trifling nature of one of them, as well as how tired I can get with all the running around the kids' schedules require, and how much our life as a couple has to revolve around the kids.  We get so little time to ourselves, either just for our own time, or a a couple.  I also, despite being surrounded by six other people, four cats, and a dog, sometimes feel inexplicably lonely.  I also suffer from insomnia, and often manage to fall asleep just as the alarm is about to go off.  It's okay.  I'll have time to sleep when I'm dead, right?

These image are from Deviant Moon Tarot by Patrick Valenza, published by U.S. Games Systems, Inc.