This is going to be a bit of a personal blog, but I am done with living my life in compartments. I am all of me. What I am wondering today is, "Why is my husband's baby mama contacting my kids dad?"
|Witches Trot by Ellen Dugan- Page of Wands, Five of Swords, The Hermit|
This Five of Swords is a gentler representation than we might usually see, although it is rife with fairies, and while they often take a positive interest in human affairs, the are fickle, and just as likely to meddle in them. I have never encountered a fairy, that I know of, but if I did I would hope I would be wise enough not to trust one. I think she would like to be seen as harmless, innocent, and just reaching out to someone, but in reality she is grasping for information she has no right to, and the joke is really on her, because there is nothing to hide. Fives are wretchedly unstable, and often represent strife, while Swords have to do with communications. She would like to gain something that does not rightfully belong to her, and she is trying to do so with words.
The Hermit is the only Major Arcana in this reading but he is turned inward towards the Five of Swords, so he is concerned with the action happening there. She feels very alone, and that no one is on her side. She would like to sway my ex to her side. She does not realize that the way we feel is not always an accurate representation of what actually is, and that is sad. There is no reason for her to be alone. She is a single parent, but my husband and I stand ready to help in any way. I have been a single mom and I have incredible compassion for that situation. Unfortunately, accepting, or even asking for that help would bring about a loss of control she cannot face. She has screamed at me in the past that she is a single parent, they are her kids only, and all she wants from my husband is our money. She wants to be alone, because that is the only way she can order her world exactly as she wants it.
|Witches Tarot by Ellen Dugan- The Moon|
I'm not unbiased in this reading. It concerns my kids, so I am invested with everything I have. It concerns my family, so I can't afford the luxury of cool distance. I do believe I am reading the cards in an accurate way, and when I read for myself I check myself by making sure I would be saying the same to a client. Neither am I perfect, but one thing I have learned is my kids' happiness and well being trumps any negative feelings I may have towards their other parent.
More to come, unfortunately....
These cards are from the Witches Tarot by Ellen Dugan and Mark Evans, published by Lo Scarabeo.