Daily Draw - Two of Wands

The Two of Wands showed up today, at first glance a stark contrast to yesterday's Hanged Man, but maybe not so much. I think of Wands as the cards of passions, and spirituality. The figure in the Two of Wands, however much influence he may have, however many great ideas are floating around in his head, is still not doing anything. He is, however, on the verge of doing something. He has faith that future is going to be big.

The energy heralded by the Two of Wands tells me that today is a good day to take control of my surroundings, and make them into what I need in order to be productive, which is a fitting card to draw as I am about to begin a whirlwind of spring cleaning on my days off this week.





This card is from the Tarot of the Cloisters by Michelle Leavitt for US Games.

Daily Draw - The Hanged Man

The Hanged Man - Sometimes, in order to go forward, we have to give up, surrender even, to the experience. This goes against my nature. I fight, I scrap, I cling, I always go down kicking. Maybe now is the time for me to start embracing a philosophy that lets me realize, "That which yields is not always weak." ~Jacqueline Carey in Kushiel's Dart. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being strong, and fighting hard for what you believe in, but the appearance of the Hanged Man suggests that a softer, more introspective energy is what is needed at this moment. Today, this card reminds me that there is a time for everything, and that today is a time for yielding to the moment, whatever that may bring.





This card is from the Tarot of the Cloisters by Michelle Leavitt for US Games.

Daily Draw - King of Pentacles & The Wheel of Fortune

I think it is going to be a good day at work, where I will feel comfortable and in my element, in control, and good money to be made as I head out to my required one Sunday a month shift! I am lucky because it is a Sunday when I don't have kidkins to cope with.

As usual with my court cards, I had to pull a clarifier. Stinky courts *grin*

Update: It was exactly that kind of day, which surprised me for Sunday! So thankful!

These cards are from the Anna K tarot.

Daily Draw - Seven of Swords

This is not the happiest card in the deck, for sure. This card shows a sneaky thief, taking off into the night with the hard won treasures of others, the very height of dishonesty. No matter how you slice it, this is a very distasteful card.

The only problem is, I don't know if it represents me on some level, or someone else in my life.

My first thought is it might have to do with my old work, the one where I experienced so much drama and upheaval last month. The owners do not do things on the up and up, and I will not be surprised if I arrive to pick up my last check to find out something shady is going down with it, which is unfortunate, because I need the money. But there is no use worrying about it before there is a need to worry, so I am just not going to.

The second thought is how does this relate to me? I try to be very honest in all my dealings, but perhaps this is an extra reminder to be even more so today, which I have no problem with at all.





This card is from the Anna K tarot.

Daily Draw - The Empress

I like this Empress. She looks like Gaia to me, more so than the RWS Empress, like there is a ferocity abut her if you mess with one of hers, like a mother bear, nearly.

This was a fitting card for me to pull today. It is snowing in Colorado, and I had planned to knock out a great deal of spring cleaning, but I think instead I will cook and bake all day, since there is no point to spring cleaning when it is apparently still winter here. There is a pot of black beans simmering away, and banana bread in the oven. This will make a wonderful cozy meal for moppets and Brother when everyone convenes home again.

I'm content today to be at home, Empress-ing it up.




This card is from the Anna K tarot.

Daily Draw - Four of Cups

I thought I had conquered this attitude, but no, Four of Cups showed up again today, although with a different deck.

This man is being waited on hand and foot. The ladies are trying to tempt him with all kinds of treats and good food, and he is just having none of it. He sits there, sullen, intractable, and seeming rather ungrateful. The family has a warm house, nice clothes, good food. What else could he want?

Sometimes we suffer less from a malaise of the regular sort, and more from a kind of divine discontent, in which we are looking for something, sometimes unnameable, but more. More experiences, more life, more Spirit in that life, more passion, just more.

In Captivating, by John and Stasi Eldredge, the authors assert that the deep desires of our hearts are there because God has placed them upon, according to His plan.

In other words, we are allowed to be discontent and even bored from time to time so that we will seek out that which we relieve our discontent, forge new pathways, look further for that something more. Some of us don't do that; preferring to be comfortably miserable than uncomfortably seeking.

So which one am I? is the question I am left with for the day.






This card is from the Anna K tarot.

Daily Draw - The Lovers

*sigh*

This is the kind of love I want for myself, one that grows old and comfortable together, stable, and that never ends. They aren't the young, naked couple from the RWS image anymore, and they aren't locked in the passionate embrace of the Deviant Moon, but they are deeply, contentedly, happily in love, still, after years.

I think this card is a promise to me today, that I will have that. I believe that we choose each deck and each card but our inner knowing does what it's supposed to do, and knows. It's hard for me to admit that I want it, because we are supposed to be okay with being single. We're supposed to put on our big girl panties and walk around like we don't want to have to fold a man's boxers or sleep with the heat turned down. For me to be true to myself, though, I have to admit that, as flawed as my marriage was, I like being a wife. I am at my best when I have someone to care for, someone to cook for, someone whose shoulders I can rub, and someone who babys me for the 15 minutes a month I need that.

While I was shuffling today, I could not decide when to stop. This card fell out. I looked at it and thought, No way, and shoved it back in the deck. There is no way I am dealing with The Lovers today. I still never actually felt the tingle, or whatever tells me to stop shuffling, but I decided enough was enough, and there it was, The Lovers, again. Okay, okay, I get it. If you are a reader of this blog, you know this happens to me fairly frequently, as recently as yesterday. I resist, Spirit continues to gently prod.

For comparison's sake here are the images from the Radiant Rider, my Prozac deck of choice (haha someone at AT called it that today and it made me laugh so hard), and the beloved, dramatic, and above all, passionate Deviant Moon.







These images are from the Anna K tarot, Deviant Moon, and Radiant Rider Waite.